Worry!

Well having worked myself into a right state yesterday, had very little sleep and have jobs that need doing, plus need energy for quilt class tomorrow, I am not feeling too great today, again!  Why do I worry and get myself worked up over things I have no control over?  I am feeling anxious and on edge all the time.  I feel like I am waiting for something awful to happen all the time, but then whatever happens cannot be changed so why worry.  Looking back we have been through all manner of traumatic events and come through them so why worry about what might happen and how to cope?  Its not something you can switch off though, wouldn’t that be easy?!  Life goes on whatever you are faced with and you deal with things as you go along.  I think sometimes its the quieter times when we feel less able to cope as all our resources have been used up at the more stressful times and we become weak and vulnerable and worry about the next problem, rather than making the most of the here and now.  One way to keep worries at bay is to be active or keep busy, but with ME that is difficult and we pay the consequences of what we do, but I think we also pay the consequences of worrying and trying to cope.  I can suffer as many symptoms after an emotional day as physical one, although days are not usually one or the other, so its difficult to separate and really know what caused what.

I am trying to get Emily to sleep back in her bed now the nights are getting colder, so gave her a new duvet cover that I was saving for Christmas in an effort to make it more inviting and I let her choose the sheets she wanted on and gave her the furry mattress cover off the other single bed!  All well and good except I had to make the bed up, it has taken me most of the morning and left me feeling sick, dizzy and shaky, not to mention in pain and tired.  Rob did say he would do it, but Emily wanted it ready so I thought it best to get on with it rather than saying no and putting her off using it and she will be able to show her friend who is coming for tea.

I wanted to get a bit of my quilt done before tomorrow, but its not to be I’m afraid.

Oooo just realised I made cup of tea about half an hour ago, must go and find it!  Whoops rather stewed as it was still in the teapot!  Its my favourite earl grey and the leaf tea is so much better, I use each pot twice to get my moneys worth!!